As a child, I thought that my mental disorder wasn't that bad. But now I have a hard time coping with the problem that I'll have for the rest of my life. I couldn't run like the regular people that I see every day. People looked at me with a huge question mark
on their faces.
I have cerebral palsy, which is a group of disorders that can involve brain and nervous system functions, such as movement, learning, hearing, seeing and thinking.
I can succeed if I can believe in myself, there's no challenge that will stop me.
Here is my story:
When I was little, a babysitter was looking after me when my mom went to work. But that day I got really ill and this babysitter took me to the hospital and she called my parents to tell them that I
had a high fever around 115 degrees.
Back then, I used to have
to sit in a wheelchair before I started to walk. It took me a lot of courage to stand up and start walking without any aids. I used to have leg braces and a walker to help my balance.
I also had a physical therapist that helped me
with my arm strength and leg strength. I stopped going to physical therapy when I graduated middle school.
my handwriting and speech was not up to par with everybody in my elementary school, I used to have speech lessons to help me work on my speech and my ch, sh, t and th sounds. I also had an one-on-one aide who followed me around and took notes for me.
That aide followed me until I
finished high school and it was nice to have their support over these years. When I went to a community college, I felt really weird because I had to do all the work alone and no one would guide me like in elementary school.
I bombed my entrance exam for entrance into English 1A and Math 114. I worked my butt off in community college. It has been an absolute struggle for me to maintain good grades, work on personal goals for myself
and hang out with family.
I have gone to Disability Support Services at De Anza College for support in testing accommodation and note-taking. Without them, I surely would have failed all my classes.
I have to retake two classes because I have failed them because of my study habits back then. But it took me five years to transfer to SJSU. Back then I never developed any good study
habits because I was in special education — and I did study.
Now, If I study hard, it might take me four years to get out of
college, while trying not to mess around like I did before.
Looking back, I was really depressed because my life was taking a t
oll on me due to thoughts that I was worthless coming from my head.
I was so disappointed with myself when I saw my friends transfer
to other schools before me. I also usually took three classes per quarter. I can say my life was a struggle and I am still adapting to it.
I was free from special education classes and someone looking out for me. Now I am at SJSU and asking for help and support from its Disability Resource
I still have the problem that I don’t write my own notes and need to ask the professor to ask my fellow classmates
to help take notes for me.
So this is my own personal struggle that I have to dealt with for so many years. I wasn't so sure that I
could share it with other students. Don’t be sorry for me. I am trying hard to get by in life. Now I can succeed in life if I can believe in myself.